Tuesday 9th December
After another sleepless night , I returned to the hospital to find Tony in a lot more pain than he had been since this all started.
We were told by the doctor that they were now sure that it was not Hepatitis but they still could not give a diagnosis at this stage. So the day dragged on until he was due to have his CT Scan at 3.30p.m. by which time the pain was getting worse by the hour.
Since being admitted to hospital he was kept in isolation and visitors were being restricted in case whatever he had was contagious. All we wanted now was for someone to tell us what was going on .
At around 8 in the evening Mr.Ward the consultant came to see us carrying the films from the CT Scan. At last we were about to get some answers…..
He explained that the scan took pictures of ‘slices’ of his stomach, and it was through this that they were able to determine that there was a large area that was diseased. He held the film up to point out the area, I expected to see a small patch of darkness but to my horror he pointed to virtually the whole area and said that was it. Tony immediately asked if it was cancer which really shocked me as I hadn’t realised that he had even considered that there was a possibility ! However, an even bigger shock was when Mr.Ward said ’yes’ he thought it was …
I couldn’t take it all in, my 15 year old son who only this afternoon we suspected had a cyst on his liver was now being told it was cancer. My son who had never had a serious illness in his life , there must be a mistake. Always the joker Tony asked if it was possible that the shadow could have been from him eating too many cola cubes!
Sadly , Mr.Ward assured him there was no possibility and told us that we had to go to Bristol Children’s Hospital (125 miles away) the following day as they were more specialised in this area.
Our lives were about to be torn apart again, why us what had we done ? Was this down to me , was I being punished for something ? Had I been a bad Mum ? Hundreds of questions…No answers , the only answers that could be given were in my head and now I was beginning to blame myself .
Written By Mum
